in times like this

always! always! when i have a project due, or a paper due the very next day I have this urge to write a blog post. I should be typing on microsoft word about History of Photography at this moment but instead i'm here doing .. this. I really don't know what to write, but i know for sure i don't want to be working on that research paper. 8-10 page paper and i haven't written a single sentence.
so lately, just to list some things happening in my life,
1. i've been coming home late at night, almost all the time, both my parents are asleep, even my brother. it feel weird to come home at night, i'm talking about 10 or 11pm and everyone's asleep. i understand that they all have to wake up early in the morning but, from that i still feel like i'm living in this house alone because no one welcomes or greets when i get home all tired. it sucks. but i can't complain because my mom's been telling me to come home early .. just that i can't!! so much work!!
2. so there you go, following up my first one, i'm busy. busy with paper, projects, designing ideas, homework for bible study, catching up with some friends, work, church activities, getting things done like financial aid and study abroad process. etc. etc. etc.
3. for some reason, i feel like i'm not as close with lily lately as i was before, maybe its just the things happening in both of our lives lately, i mean she's getting married soon and i'm just too busy with life. we don't have that much stuff in common lately to talk about, and feels like we don't really talk about our problems and stress either, ahhh i don't know. its just weird. i don't like this but.. and i'm sure lily might be thinking the same way.
4. boys. just boy thing i guess. nothing serious or romance stuff. just been getting quiet alot of attention from boys. not to be all snobby but im not complaining, its nice to have some company around and people who are interested in me and things i do. but i can't forget that i need to keep order, order as in, not get things out of control or rack any relationships. because at this point, i'm not seeking for a serious relationship, a boy friend. an opposite sex friend is good enough. i just wish that deep emotions don't go around because it'll make things dirty and complicate.
5. been gaining weight again. must start work out immediately.
6. facebook wall posts from other people just annoys me. why are people so immature.
7. been loving this site called Etsy, there's so many vintage stuff i want to buy but.. no money. so sad.
8. also loving reading and following these awesome bloggers
9. need to stop facebooking and youtubing
10. having problems waking up in the morning
11. i think i spend too much time getting ready, i have difficulty figuring out what to wear every morning and just feel like i'm wasting time putting on make up. . when did i become someone who rely on makeup to go out in the public. even hair! ugh. i want to be proud of my natural face and my fugly hair haha.
12. i think i'm obsessed taking shower.
13. i've been buying random stuff and returning them without even opening the package or what not.
14. oh, just started on this new skin care routine, Nu Skin. its been a week. please clear up my face and make my skin glooooow.


this week is passion week. above all the work i have to get done, i want to keep Jesus in mind and him as my top priority this week. i'm gonna pray as much as i can.